Cuti Mid Term-" Hari yang tidak produktif"

Assalammualaikum uolls,

Apa khabar uolls? I olls fine jer. Ngehihi,. Erm tak tahu nak kata apa lah. Dah lama gila tak menaip memalam buto gini sambil sumbat lagu dekat telinga. Tadi akal kemain banyak cerita nak taip, tapi tulah bila dah sampai on laptop jer blur. Ergh~ Nak tak kita cuba berbahasa Melayu means taip dalam full BM. Saja je nak cuba lah hai.

Hari ini depenuhkan dengan banyak perkara tak bermanfaat bagi aku. Apa ke tidak nya? Kau bayangkan aku bangun pagi pukul 10 pagi . Itu pun dah gigih mengejek diri sendiri kata :

"Pergi tolong mak"

"Bangun lah gemuk"

"Jangan jadi pemalas"

"Kalau tak bangun sekarang, sampai bila tak bangun"

Akhirnya, berjaya aku mengagahkan diri dari tidur. Seterusnya, aku basuh muka , gosok gigi dan terus membuka tudung saji. Anak gajah pun tak malas macam ini kan?? Kemalasan tahap dewa kau tahu. Makan-makan. Mak pun malas agaknya hendak berleter meneruskan aktiviti harian beliau. Mak saya suka memasak, jadi jika ada anak perempuan dia mengada-ngada tergedik-gedik tiba-tiba nak tolong, jangan harap lah wahai diri. Tak kan boleh. Kata beliau, kami hanya melambatkan lagi masa untuk makanan itu siap dimasak. Jadi, kebanyakan anak mak tempang tangan untuk pandai memasak lauk berkuah terutamanya aku. 

Baik, sudah jauh menyimpang. Hari tak produktif terus giat berjalan seperti biasa. Maafkan anakmu ini ya, Puan Robiah. Kemudian, saya dah siap makan, duduk terperap tengok televisyen. Cerita itu, cerita ini satu pun tak berkenan di hati. 

Kenapa? Kenapa Malaysia tak boleh cipta satu cerita yang memperlihatkan keadaan realti penduduk Malaysia yang sebenar? Aku tak harapkan cinta mimpi yang indah kerana sudah muak dan aku tahu peratusan untuk perkara sedemikian berlaku pada aku amat lah tipis. Kau rasa, kau hado? Tiada lah sampai nak meniru cerita Indonesia, asyik "zoom-zoom" sahaja. Tetapi kenapa aku rasa cerita mereka lebih menarik untuk aku tonton. Tolonglah beritahu aku kenapa?

Habis cerita drama ya. Sekarang, kembali pada tajuk yang asal. " Hari yang tidak produktif" . Tiba-tiba, malam macam ini, aku boleh rindu meja belajar dengan kolej Kinabalu itu. Dah apa hal dengan aku kan? Sedih lah macam ini. Balik rumah, rindu kolej. Balik kolej , rindu rumah balik. Apa kes kau , Farah. 

Owh, okeylah. Tak reti aku lama-lama nak taip bahasa melayu penuh nieh.. Hahaha. Nak tulis cerita lah.. Mip mip~ :P

Rejected.

Assalammualaikum and hi guys.

Today is 3rd of Ramadhan. And I wish to all of you

Selamat Berpuasa. :)

Pagi tadi on lah Facebook with the hope of having a college. Open notification and looked up for my friends comment about the college. She commented about the post that  I just gave to her. And she said I was rejected from the eight college. Hemm.

Yes, now I am feeling rejected. How can the college rejected me after what I have contributed to the college? Hahaha. Well, it sounds like I have contributed many things to the compliment of the 8th college. Nay, it was not. I am not like the other girls who joined many kinds of programs like FESENI and SUKMUM , banyak lagi lah.

But, don't you think I deserved to have a place at the college . I do well in Boling Padang and i would like to do more next year. I felt betrayed. SO, I do really hope that I get my revenges to 8th college by playing good for other college (if I am being accepted by other college lah kan).---just joking

If I was being accepted by 8th college, In Shaa Allah I will try my best to face the difficult and bring this college to more higher college.

THATS ALL i would like to share for this morning.

Still tak tidur lagi.

Assalammualaikum, Ollaaa!

Heyya, whazzup. Jam kat tepi dah tunjukkan waktu 4 pagi, but still I can't sleep. I don't know why. Waeyo Farah? Dalam dua tiga menjak ni, hati rasa sedih sangat. Bukannya sebab putus cinta ke hapa eh. Ntah lah, rasa hati tu nak nangis je sampai biji mata lebam mcm panda yang comel tuuu.

Rasanya dekat UM ni, tulah teman aku. Aku bukan takde kawan, tapi aku tak nak serabut kan orang lain dengan emo aku nieh. Sikit2 emotional, padahal tengok cerita korea je pun. Tapi sebenarnya ada sebab kenapa aku nangis.



Aku rasa macam aku buat pilihan yang salah bila aku pilih UM ni.. Aku rasa aku tak buka peluang untuk diri aku jadi macam dulu. Yang rajin, yang suka lepak. Tapi sekarang tak. Bila mana ada wifi student yg canggih bapak laju nieh. Aku lalai, aku jadi tak tentu hala. Asyik main game je. Bila ada kwn datang , ajak makan. Aku tolak. Sebab kemalasan dan kekusyukkan terhadap internet yang laju sesangat nieh.

Lagi satu sebab dia. I was totally felt hopeless when I can't remember the Equation of Standard deviation. Dah lah dgn markah rendah hari tu test. Macam mana ni oiii!I just felt like I paling bodoh kat dunia nieh. Huahhhhhhh! Secondly, I got a called from my parents that the fees still haven't been paid.Yeah, i knew that for along time. Tapi takkan nak mintak dekat mak ayah aku. Aku tahu mak ayah aku mampu nak bayar semua tu.Herm, but until when I need to ask their money to pay all that fees.

UM nie dahlah yuran mahal kemain. Apa beza dgn other institution lain pun tak tahu lah aku. Dah dua tiga kali, aku fikir rasa cam nak tukar U. Sebab aku rasa tak layak sangat! Bukan tempat aku dekat sini.. Penat aku nangis tadi. Dah lah tengok Emergency couple , tapi ternangis lak. Cause Mong's condition cam sama dgn aku.



Suddenly, aku buka FB. Ternampak satu ayat nieh.

"Study baik-baik kerja kita, Result elok tak elok itu semua urusan Allah"

At that time, baru aku rasa macam lega sikit sebab aku patut bersyukur. Dalam reramai tu, aku terpilih masuk sini . Ada sebab kenapa Allah S.w.t  pilih aku dekat sini.... Dan aku patut sedar yang aku pilih jalan nieh. Mak ayah tak pernah pilihkan untuk aku. Meskipun dulu, aku pernah tak teringin nak masuk UM nieh sbb nak dpt dean list dia kena 3.7. What sangat kan?!

Sekarang nieh dah okay dah sikit. Alhamdulillah. Dah-dah. 

Wipe your tears away Farah. :) Cer tengok ni Farah.

(lawak lak dgr lagu cinema remix nieh-hahaha)

Okay, wasalam. :)

Just a story

Assalammualaikum.

Wah-wah, dah berlalang dah blog ni. Tak dijaga dengan rapi sungguh. Huhu.

Heay, yeay, haaloo! 

Welcome back dear to hear a lots of my stories.
I am not sure whether you are interested to know about my life.But , duh . Alhamdulillah. My life is going better. Nope , each day ever since I was born , Allah have make my blast day full of happiness that I even did not know either. He the Almighty gives us hardness to make us stronger and think how to face the it.

Setiap yang Allah tentukan adalah yang terbaik untuk diri kita.
Mungkin kita tak dapat sekarang, tapi In Shaa Allah, Allah beri kepada keturunan kita.
So, smile guys. Don't take everything seems hard to you , just flow with the bad horrendous problem. :)

Semester 2 had just started since the end of February. And it seems I have make a lot of good friends. Perhaps, I am the only one feel that way, but duh what is the important thing is be a good to everyone yea.

The only thing that I would like to talk is I do think once twice triple , I love someone. Hell no! Someone? Why do I have these feeling? It makes me, myself , I unable to be my own self in front of him. T-T

Badump badump. I just hate these feeling. Heart is Beating so fast and sometimes I talked nonsense when I see him. WAAAAAAAA.  

I never thought that I can fall in love with him as the type that I would like is not in him .
I admire a man which have " sepet " eyes , but he has just the same eyes like me.
I want a man with a milk coloured skin , but he is the brown skin type .
I know I am not a princess to have this and that , but this is my love I should imagine how is my hubby is going to be like.

LOVE can b SOMETHING that you CAN'T IMAGINE at ALL

Herm, but the important thing here that I can't know confess to him because ...
Dey I am girl , it is going to be awkward if I am being the one who confess to him first.
What could happen if he did not like me, or he himself has a girlfriend .
I can grab him and make as my boyfriend
Coz I know if I do that, the same thing will goes around to me.
What can I do right know. Should I remain silent and forget about this fucking love. It sounds so silly to me. herm.

Bacalah rintihan hati ini

Assalammualaikum.

Finally, dapat pun aku nak menaip dalam blog nieh. Haiyakk. Dulu dekat rumah berangan-angan nak jadi blogger lah bagai. Ni huh, dah ada wifi laju baq hang, tak nak guna pulak?! Lumrah lah kan. Herm, kalau diikutkan nak tulis apa takde lah sangat. Cuma . Erm erm mungkin ingin meluahkan perasaan hati yang kian lara.

Hidup kat UM ni rasa beza sangat dgn KMNS. Yeah, maybe baru awal lagi. Tapi aku rasa sunyi. Rasa sorang je dekat sini. Eventhough aku dah ade bbrapa kawan yang aku boleh rely on tapi mmg tak boleh ganti kwn time matriks. Diorang sayang aku dengan sentiasa dkat dgn aku. Tapi aku tak sedar semua tu. Dah tiada di sebelah , tiada di sisi . Baru. Baru aku terasa aku kehilangan orang yang patut aku jaga perasaan diorang. Kat UM ni aku selalu rindu mak aku. Dekat matriks jarang aku macam ni .

Aku rasa aku tewas. Kalah. Seorang diri . Masa matriks aku excited nak masuk sbb dapat pilih apa yang aku nak. Tapi UM ni . Ak tak faham. Ak tak mengerti kenapa emosi aku tak stabil. Aku lemah . Mungkin niat aku tak diperbetulkan lagi. Aku masuk UM sbb aku nak dan mak ayah aku pun suka. Tapi aku tak tahu kenapa. Entah lah. Tolong lah. Setiap kali aku tak dapat jawab soalan assignment ke tutorial , aku down gila Gila tahap gaban. macam wtf sangat. Rasa macam aku bodoh gila. Tapi aku tak nak bgitahu mak aku. Sbb aku tak nak kecewakan diorang sbb ini apa yang aku pilih. Course yang aku pilih.

Sampai sini jelah aku tulis . Bila ada idea aku tulis lagi.. Erm, maybe boleh buat novel online dlm blog kan.. huhuhu

Why we live?

Assalammualaikum,

Just now , i read Redza Minhat 's blog. He is one of the main actor in Kill. Actually , i did not watched his movies but I know he is a good actor. Fulamakkk.  He seems really good when he used those English words. Thus, he makes me want to write in English words too. Thanks a  lot abg Redza.

Soon you will be laughing till death and said " Beranganlah English ko tu dik non" . Duhh. This is my blog. I am pleased if you can help my English rather than smashed my hope to be better in use, talk , sway with this language.

" Aku junjung Bahasa Melayu, kan ku kendong Bahasa Inggeris"

 Here we are.

A few second before, my best friend called me. Perhaps, she really miss me as she can't go date raya with us. Pity you. Heh heh. I just joke , my lovely mate. She asked me to brain wash her but I just huh?
I am not really good in advising someone else as i just the normal person, hamba Allah that had to face a lot of things. Instead of giving false advices to her, i gave her my tips while I lost in my own imagination, emotion and up-down life.

Girls , woman , ladies have a great emotional to be take care. Sometimes, those small thing can make us felt dumped. Some jokes are being taken seriously when they are not in their stable mood. Thuck thuck. Perhaps, you understand us.

When i am not in good situation, feelings , a lot of things flew through my brain. Why should i live in this way? Why they love to piss me off? Maybe , if i did not exist in this world, it could be a good thing to them. I just a big burden to them. SEE? Astagfirullah. There is something that we did not realized the reason of our existence in this world. We live to pray to Allah. To grab the chance that Allah give to us. To be the one that make our parent be happy. To feel the love that other religions do not have. Subhanallah . We forgot those facts.

Syukur alhamdulillah. I born as Islam. Our brothers and sisters, tried hardly to find Islam. That's why they love so much Islam and they use the road that Allah taught us as they need to find it. Us? See the difference friends.

Right now, i full of emotion that i cant hide from you. Bismillah. Back to the thing that i want to write.
Want success in your life? It is easy to say than do it right? erm . I hope this entry will help you.

1 ) Fill your heart with niat kerana Allah. This is always make me feel that i am wanted by someone that would like to see me in good day. The ones that never lose hope eventhough i seem to be apart with Him. Allahu. Allahu. Allahu. When you felt so sad, tried to remember that you can share anything with Him.

2 ) Do something in your life because you want it. You shaped your own life not others. They can give suggestion but the one that move your body, your nerves, brain is You! So live happily.

3 ) Mak and ayah always give me headache but life without them will be nothing. Totally a zero. They compared you with their's friend 's father's grandchildren 's result because they know that it will be a nightmare to us as we hate to hear that. So, to make their "plan" flow well, they use their power to pok pek pok pek us and just then we realize to defeat those marks. Yeahhhh!

They are completely fill with a bloom of rose in my life. What the duhh i am talking about. haha .
I love them so much that i am afraid i can't be the best to beat the rest. But they still with me.

4 ) Spread your worries to your sister and brother and friends. They face it too! Lucky i am to have them in my life.

5) Studying = study + dying (read from twitter) Haha
why we need to study? need good marks. why? there is reason behind every accident.
When we study, we feel that we are smart . In this concept actually, we need to realize that we are stupid, moron. Ahhhaaaa. When we are studying, you need to understand it, memorize it and apply the things that we learned. Simple right isn't it? Nope. Each day we learn a new thing like a newborn baby. Learn to crawl, learn to bertatih, learn to walk, learn to run. see? when you know something, you will be need to understand other thing. 

So, just relax . Study is just the way of life. Sometimes, you at up, then you at down. cycle happens.

Summary :

UPSR ---> PMR ---> SPM ( get good results ) ---> Foundation , Asasi, Diploma , Matriculation, Degree -( again, good result ) ---> sijil utk mendapat interview pekerjaan ( baru interview ) ---> then kerja.

See, a long road. So ,just be happy and say alhamdulillah if you get collapse . Maybe it is because you forget the Akhirat , thus Allah give you a way to remember Akhirat.

Friends, we live once. Grab this chance to  be a better  hamba Allah , good child , adik baik , best student , wife solehah. Wife solehah to be. Taken by someone that i did'nt know but insya Allah , dia di bawah jagaan Allah.  Fuh fuh fuh... Hahaha. So long, 

Love Farah

Random title

Assalammualaikum.

Hurm hurm. Dah sangat pagi ni tapi mata tak mengantuk lagi nmpknya. Dari tadi memang macam-macam nak tulis tapi satu persoalan timbul. Kalau aku tulis mcm ni, apa orang kata? Choyy. Farah, buat apa fikir apa orang lain fikir. Itu hanya pendapatan dan buah fikiran yang hendak dikongsi bersama . Oleh itu, tajuk malam ini adalah random.

SEE?! Random.

Duh! Mybe dia akan terjerumus kepada tajuk :

" Nak try ikut orang tapi macam peniru jee"

Itu lah tajuk kita malam ni. Why do I said Like that? Cuba tengok sekeliling. Mcam-macam website yang tumbuh mcm cendawan yg terlebih dpt hujan. Berlambak. Banyak sangat. Yaaa, aku pun salah seorang yg menge "join" nye. haha. It`s true dowang. Tak salah nak bersosial di laman sosial ni. Tapi ada caranya. Jangan buat orang lain sampai meluat dan rasa mcm nak mengata je budak yang diview page nye tu . haha. Banyak kali aku rasa camtu. And kdg2, update status pun niat dlm hati  sbb nak kasi org like status. *angkat tgn* Aku pernah buat. Sbb itu lumrah manusia .

Manusia inginka perhatian walaupun sedikit. Tapi ingat. Apa yang kita taip , kita sebarkan. Semua itu ada peneman yang mencatit disebelah. Jika baik perkaranya, alhamdulillah.Tapi jika tidak, segera lah betulkan niat. Insya Allah, kita akan tersedar lalu merasa kesal dan akan sentiasa mengingatkan jari2 awak yang manis tu apa yg perlu dtaip sebenarnya.

Walaaah. Aku selalu on twitter, hanya nk tgk ade tak org retweet apa yg ak tulis tu. Favourite ke. Noob, takde . So, hati sedih sikit. Mula taip perkara lain. Still. takde sape-sape pun ambil perhatian.
Then, fed up. Esok nya camtu. Tapi lama-lama fikir. Buat apa ak type bebanyak , bergudang-gudang , kalau yang Mencipta kita tak redha. Tak dberkati. So, I started to tweet only when I feel it`s okay to tuit or update status FB tu huh.

Just be yourself. eventhough there is no one out there like you, you still have Allah. Subhanallah. Indah kan Islam? Baiklah, esok nk berblog pasa kuih raya. See u soon.


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